Valentine’s Day
You know on this day, maybe more than on any other day, that you have a heart. Your heart today, feels loved, or perhaps ignored. It feels.
Today I feel the weight of emptiness in my life. A great sadness, although I do not cry, has swept into my heart. How and when can I sweep it out…be rid of it? What brings life, joy and love again? When I went for a run today, a thought occurred to me. The only one on this earth that can make me feel loved is me. That is, my happiness starts first with me. I can not look to another to bring joy and love into my life. Now how, if I believe I am currently unloved, can I expect that love will grow again within me?
My remedy is one day, after the other. Love me, love others. Find opportunities to love. Who did I love today? I love Alex with a hug and gentle words. I loved Kirsten with a phone call and a plan for lunch on Thursday. I loved my Pop by editing his blog, and kind words in an email. When I type these words, they sounds lame. Not tremendously exciting. Not especially spontaneous, interesting or deep. And you know…I guess that goes to show me, I get what I give.
Tomorrow I will work harder at loving those in my life who matter. I will make the most of each day, to love others, and be good to myself. I will work for the good, and create in myself a lovable person.
The Valentine card I picked out for my husband is signed & sealed in my underwear drawer.
