Capsized
Capsizing refers to when a boat or ship is tipped over until disabled. The act of reversing a capsized vessel is called righting.
Sometimes I am forced to reflect on my life. My mind will allow nothing else. I must look at it. Truth is truth, and it requires a response. And when I am truthful with myself, I feel the whole breadth and width of my pain.
I know the source, but I do not know the remedy. I do not know how, at this point, to right the ship that lies with its mast in the still water. How do I remover the water which sinks it? How will I do this? Surely I need help. Surely I need an advocate, a partner. But I fear that if I try to right the ship alone, I will sink alone, with a worthless ship.
Is my ship like the Titanic, doomed? Should I just abandon the ship, and swim for shore? Can I send out an SOS and wait for a rescue? I’m not usually one to wait. I am a doer. I hope for answers that will help me to chart my course. I wonder, though, will it be a course alone?
I once read, the best way to overcome worry is to face it head-on. In your mind, go through your scenario, including the worst, possible outcome. Resign yourself to accepting your life should the worst happen. See yourself walk through it, dealing with it. Did you die? Can you make it through? If you identify the worst and accept it, everything that happens, no matter what, you are prepared for. For if you can handle the “worst” you can surely handle just the “sort of bad” scene.
